I Miss My Dad
You know dad I keep thinking I am going to see you sitting in the kitchen reading the paper even though you died in my arms. I miss you so much, I can't eat and I can't sleep,I cry all the time and feel so empty inside. Nothing feels right anymore everything seems so unimportant now that you are gone. I could never have imagined seeing you die and feeling so powerless to help you. My heart is so broken and heavy
nothing seems to matter much anymore. I walk around in a haze secretly wishing I was dead . Whenever I go near the steps I freeze with fear and anxiety because of that nite . I see it everytime I walk up them and it fills me with overwhelming saddness and pain. I am leaving my boyfriend dad because he could not comfort me without making me feel like he was doing all these taxing favors for me and throwing the fact that he was there at all in my face and holding it over my head whenever he wants to make me feel bad. He is nothing like you, he is a weak and awful person
and I know you saw that way before I did. I should only hope I can meet someone as awesome and righteous and hardworking as you were dad. I miss you more then words can describe I will take care of mom she is not doing well without you. I wish you could help me with this pain on my chest and this rock in my stomach and this huge black hole in my heart and I know if you could you would but it only gets worse without you. We miss you and we love you and I know you did not mean to put me through the most painful thing I could never want to expierence in my whole entire life. I will see you again one day and then maybe I will understand why you had to leave me like that. I only hope it was because it comforted you to know I was there. I love you and please know my life is not the sameand never will be without you.
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