I Miss My Dad

Dear Frank,
It's been so hard since your passing. It's still so hard to beleive. There are days that I find myself in utter shock that this has actually happened to you and this family. And there are times that I want to scream about how UNFAIR this feels...and watching everyone try and cope without you in thier lives...well it breaks my heart. The pain is too much, too hard to handle...I miss you! God and what your wife and children are going thru. I know you miss everyone, I think that in a spiritual way you are there for everyone when you are needed....I feel very thankful for that. Frank it's still so unimaginable that you are gone from here physically. I feel for my Husband and how he misses you so. This longing will never go away, It's the pain the pain the pain...When I try and identify what J must be going thru It's absolutely unbearable....I don't know how she's doing it, and she is day by day, or hour by hour...Part of me believes you're helping her along...But I know that too she's got to feel some kind of something about doing this, getting thru this, coping with this ON HER OWN!! Frank, If Had one wish I would wish that you get to come back and be with us again. That there was some mix up and that the wrong person died that day and God said, Frank go in peace and be with your family they need you. And we all went to pick you up, probably at the airport cuz that's where you pick people up and J ran into your arms and you hugged and kissed and loved, and she got to feel your strong arms around her again, hear your voice and talk to you and then you hugged each and everyone of your children again and again, and one by one on down the line we each grabbed and hugged you and told you how great you are, and wonderful it is to be at your side and how lucky we are to know you and be apart of your family. I would enjoy watching my husband fall into your arms collapsing with the grace of your presence, and him feeling your arms around him and hearing you tell him you love him and and that you are proud of him. And watching you hold my babies and Sly looking up at you with one of his smiles, Hearing Jack call you Granpa... Man, what a great visualization. I'm picturing it in mind, feeling it in my heart exactly how it would go...your expressions, how you would hug each of us, and your concerned, take charge look on your face. We'd all know then that everything would be okay......Listen Frank, I know that's not real...But sure sounded good...Didn't it??? Well, together and with you in spirit everyone will pull through this, and never forgotten, you being gone changes our lives forever and will affect us everyday.....

Frank we are going up to the cottage Finally..I can't help but wish/Want you were going to be there with us. It just seems like we missed out on so much Me and E and our kids. Geez, My children will not even know you. Jack is so young and when I talk with him I make it a point to mention you as his grandfather and that we always have to think about you and keep you in our hearts. It's a struggle in my heart Frank. Anyhow, I mostly wanted to tell you how much you are missed. and how I will never EVER forget you. How thankful and fortunate I feel to have your son as my husband. How I appreciate all and everything YOU have done for E and I...That I admired you as a father, Father-in-law, Business Man, and as a person. Your Son is a strong responsible, caring, nurturing husband, you did good. I'm the happiest girl in the world having him as my Husband.

Take care of yourself, visit us often and whenever you want, it's okay to let us know you are there (AND! Thank you so much for the contacts made already, I know from my heart it's you.....Please, keep it up it gives hope) Come and see how big Your grandsons have gotten...Sly is so much like Jack.

Much Love And Gratitude, Respectfully Yours, Daughter-in Law M
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