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I Miss My Dad

hey daddy i miss you. you went without saying goodbye. my dad died a week before my 12th birthday which was 9 motnhs ago. i know i'm young but inside i'm as grown up as most adults sometimes more. i've found everything so hard. i mean he died unexpectadly of a tractor accident no time for goodbyes or i love you. i tried to be with him lots i tried to die but i didn't succeed. i spent so many months in counciling lying saying i was fine never opening up. my friends were and still are so scared that they're gunna loose me too. my dad loved all my friends that's what makes it harder i guess. i'm ashamed of the scars i have now my wrists god i hide them so well. i would never go back to thinking that was the way out. the only way. because it isn't and i've only just come to realise that! iv'e spent months of living for some body else not myself. it isn't easy. people often told me i should let go there's no point holding on to what's not there but then they also told me my dad will love me for ever so how's that figure? simple.... it doesn't! none of my friends know what goes on in my head how my emotions work and i'm glad they don't. i'm glad no-one has to see exactly what i do. i'm not saying others don't have hard times too i'm saying everyone else see's it differently. i'll always love you dad love you forever your baby girl mel

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