I just came across your sight and find there are other people out there who are going through some of the same things I am. I lost my mother on January 6, 2001. My father was admitted to the hospital on the night of January 4th with pneumonia. Mom and I went to see him on January 5th and she died the night of January 6th. She was at home by herself and had a heart attack. We didn't find her until Tuesday, January 9th. I did talk with her in the afternoon of January 6th and that was it. I have two older brothers and we were all at the hospital with my dad as he was not expected to live. I guess we each thought the other, or their spouse, had talked to Mom and we all had left messages. She died at her desk writing in her journal about what a kind and loving family she had. People always tell me to remember the "good times", but I do not recall any bad times. My mom was so kind and honest and quiet. She never found fault with anyone. These last 5 months have been very hard. I just keep finding myself saying that I miss her and I want her back. Is that selfish? The world is a cruel place, I am sure she is in a better place now. I just wish I could receive some sign or something from her letting me know she is ok. I don't really understand God and death and the Bible. I do believe in God though. I also find myself thinking of the things that she will no longer see such as her grandchildren getting married, graduating from school having children of their own. It hurts. It seems like the more I try to take the pain away the more it hurts. Heartbroken.miss my dad, grieve, greive, bereave, loss, bereavment, breavement, greiving, grieving, death, i, miss, my, dad, sad, passed, passed away, away, died, i miss my dad grieve greive bereave loss bereavment breavement greiving grieving death sad passed away died

I Miss My Dad

I just came across your sight and find there are other people out there who are going through some of the same things I am.
I lost my mother on January 6, 2001. My father was admitted to the hospital on the night of January 4th with pneumonia. Mom and I went to see him on January 5th and she died the night of January 6th. She was at home by herself and had a heart attack. We didn't find her until Tuesday, January 9th. I did talk with her in the afternoon of January 6th and that was it. I have two older brothers and we were all at the hospital with my dad as he was not expected to live. I guess we each thought the other, or their spouse, had talked to Mom and we all had left messages. She died at her desk writing in her journal about what a kind and loving family she had. People always tell me to remember the "good times", but I do not recall any bad times. My mom was so kind and honest and quiet. She never found fault with anyone. These last 5 months have been very hard. I just keep finding myself saying that I miss her and I want her back. Is that selfish? The world is a cruel place, I am sure she is in a better place now. I just wish I could receive some sign or something from her letting me know she is ok. I don't really understand God and death and the Bible. I do believe in God though. I also find myself thinking of the things that she will no longer see such as her grandchildren getting married, graduating from school having children of their own. It hurts. It seems like the more I try to take the pain away the more it hurts.
Heartbroken.

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