I don't know why I am writing you but something just urged me to do it. I am sending this e-mail under my fathers aol screenname since I was checking his old mail when I came accross your site. my address is tbsweetpea@aol.com. All in the last year my father has suffered 2 strokes, severe lung disease, a second amputation of a leg, a drug overdose and severe depression. I would have to say that I have spent the better part of the last 9 months at the hospital at least every other day. He went home from the hospital about 2 months ago and has been abusing pain medications and smoking while he was on oxygen. He was suffering physically and mentally. Ever since he passed away, I just keep telling myself I can't believe he is gone and it is almost as though I won't take other peoples word for it. You see when my father died I was not able to have a viewing and I feel as though I had no closure. Its almost as if I don't believe it because I didn't see it for myself. Even though I have his whole apartment in my basement, and I went through the whole funeral thing, for some reason I just don't believe this is happening to me. My father was very poor and on social security disability. I bought him a brand new computer a month before he died and he loved it. He played casino games and surfed the internet. As a matter of fact he died in front of his computer playing casino games the day he died. I sure do hope he is happy now with his girlfriend Mary and is fishing with his best friend Jimmy who passed away only 3 months ago. I am sorry to ramble on. This is the first time that I have written anything since he passed away and am just grateful to be able to send it to anyone who would listen. You don't have to post it, because it's not really a letter to my dad. It was a letter to say I am so glad to see that I am not the only one going through this. It helped me a great deal to see your site. Thank You and I am truly sorry for your loss.

I Miss My Dad

I don't know why I am writing you but something just urged me to do it. I am sending this e-mail under my fathers aol screenname since I was checking his old mail when I came accross your site. my address is tbsweetpea@aol.com. All in the last year my father has suffered 2 strokes, severe lung disease, a second amputation of a leg, a drug overdose and severe depression. I would have to say that I have spent the better part of the last 9 months at the hospital at least every other day. He went home from the hospital about 2 months ago and has been abusing pain medications and smoking while he was on oxygen. He was suffering physically and mentally. Ever since he passed away, I just keep telling myself I can't believe he is gone and it is almost as though I won't take other peoples word for it. You see when my father died I was not able to have a viewing and I feel as though I had no closure. Its almost as if I don't believe it because I didn't see it for myself. Even though I have his whole apartment in my basement, and I went through the whole funeral thing, for some reason I just don't believe this is happening to me. My father was very poor and on social security disability. I bought him a brand new computer a month before he died and he loved it. He played casino games and surfed the internet. As a matter of fact he died in front of his computer playing casino games the day he died. I sure do hope he is happy now with his girlfriend Mary and is fishing with his best friend Jimmy who passed away only 3 months ago. I am sorry to ramble on. This is the first time that I have written anything since he passed away and am just grateful to be able to send it to anyone who would listen. You don't have to post it, because it's not really a letter to my dad. It was a letter to say I am so glad to see that I am not the only one going through this. It helped me a great deal to see your site. Thank You and I am truly sorry for your loss. tbsweetpea@aol.com ninekman@aol.com

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